Blogging these days is hard. The boys are currently in the garden hunting for treasure (a.k.a baby potatoes that escaped detection during last year's harvest). Marnie is cooing at a plush dinosaur baby toy that used to be her brothers'. And I'm trying to click-clack at a fast clip,
[And then life happened mid-sentence, as it usually does. Brother mediation. Discipline. Washing grubby hands and feet. Nursing a baby. Changing a two very stinky diaper diapers. Getting boys on couches with their requested book stacks for pre-nap wind down--Dr. Seuss for Pip and Jan Brett for Tadhg. Nursing again. Reading books. Singing songs. Putting everyone down for naps.]
Yeah. Blogging is hard these days.
As Tadhg and Pippin grow, good discipline and good conversation and good mothering require more time, more of myself. Less of myself? My self runs out fast, leaving me in a place of a) ugly sin or b) real-time learning that having everything we need for life and godliness in Christ is more than ink on paper. That any love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control my children receive really, truly is from God's Spirit and not from me.
All of that was a bunny trail, though.
The point of the post? Tadhg is now THREE!!!
He truly is our little philosopher these days. The questions come hard and heavy, and Rundy and I are loving them. His imagination keeps enlarging, and I am daring to hope that someday its boundaries will be as far-flung as some of his uncles'. He has a fiery temper, and he and I sin together and forgive together and grow together daily. His fire, inexplicably, is matched only by his tenderness. His ability to see outside himself can be uncanny at times. He can be all gentleness. He still needs 'nuggle time every morning, and nearly every morning after half an hour goes by I have to be the one to end it.
"Tadhg, do you want to go play?"
"No. I want to 'nuggle more."
"Do you want to snuggle forever?"
"Yes."
Every once in a while Rundy or I will get a prolonged look inside his head when he's in just the right mood to talk for a long time. Most of the time he's definitely three, plain and simple. But in those moments? Moments when I realize how much thinking and imagining and puzzling over is in there that I'm clueless about? He seems about fifty. Those peeks are almost terrifying. I know my child; I don't know my child at all.
What a firstborn. What a heavy delight to get to raise him.
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It's been three years since he looked like this. What a strange thing time is.
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